Last Dayz

Last few days in new york right now. Really few as in two left. Im outtie five thousand early saturday morning. This summer has gone by pretty fast even though its felt like more than four months. Some of the days have felt like weeks while others have been minutes. There is no doubt that I won't miss the city at all. I mean I've only lived here my whole life, in this hot apartment in College Point. I've traveled to other places but this will always be home to me. And yeah I do love to go back to school and see everybody but it just isn't the same. I mean yeah the priveliges there are endless, but it just doesn't have the same character. It's weird to live without care or to watch your back. It's weird not having to worry about roaches and mice in your house. It just seems like an escape from reality. This at times is definitely needed because of how stressful it can be here but i really miss the New York attitude. Just people going out and doing it for themselves and thinking about themselves first before others. A perfect example is how people act on the train. Some french dude coming from the US Open today wanted me to get out of my seat so that he could sit next to his girl. He deadass wanted me to move so he could sit there. I straight up laughed in his face and asked him if he was fucking kidding me. Then just people wanting to sit right next to me and them getting pissed cause they cant fit. Just like what the fuck, go deal with it. I feel like in other places people might move. I miss that for the lack of a better word go fuck yourself attitude. Like people at school are just so open and verbal and feel free to talk to anyone. At home if I dont know you Im not gonna speak to you if I dont know you or if one of my friends doesnt know you. Why the fuck would I do that. Plus the drivers up there are way too weird. I was telling my boy eddy yesterday how they actually stop for you. I mean its nice and the right the to do, but its just really fucking weird. Its like theres no angry drivers up there, like road rage is non existant. I mean its just so unusual and it doesn't feel normal. Plus when random kids will say hi to you, just weirds me out man. I mean now that its gonna be my second year up there it wont freak me out as much, and wont take me as long as it did to get used to it, but theres still gonna be that weird week where I gotta remind myself to not tell this person to fuck off and instead say hi and maybe smile. I mean most of these kids dont come from big cities, but small towns where they basically go to the same school with the same bunch of kids from kindergarten through their senior year. With me and a bunch of other new yorkers its the exact opposite where we jump from school to school and see different people everyday. Who knows maybe I can convert some people to reality where not everyone is smiling and waving to you when you walk by and want to stop and have a conversation with you in the middle of the sidewalk.
In the end its a give and take cause I also have to learn that there are some people who support you and always aren;t out to get you.

-Peace and Love