Back In The Day

Recently I just turned 19 and it blows my mind. I still think I'm a little kid and still feel like one. Even though I'm much bigger and older, I can still remember most of my elementary school years. I remember how much simpler things were then. This came and hit me in the face this summer after working with ten to twelve year old boys, reliving experiences every other day. The flashbacks came and went and even scared me sometimes. The only difference is that I appreciate them so much more. I wish I could just go back and relive those years just to say thank you to those people who taught me, loved me, and coached me along the way to make me the person that I am today. But thats the thing about life. It's not perfect for a reason. We learn from those mistakes made, and hopefully don;t do the same again. I just miss those times and wish I could just stay there forever. I miss playing basketball and every other conceivable sport with my sisters and my dad. I miss washing the car with my dad and eventually having huge water fights. Playing wiffle ball with my friends, when staying up late meant till midnight, 90s cartoons, wishing I was in the NBA, watching my sisters play, traveling to tournements, sleeping over at my aunts house, roofball, being able to play an instrument, being so creative that I made my own comic books, drawing for hours on end, having best friends only a few blocks away, the simple joy of watching the simpsons before bed, and not having to worry about things because my family is right there. The only thing that really hasn't changed is that my family is still right here with me and I can't thank them enough for that. I coulnd't imagine not living with both my parents and my sisters under one roof and I have the utmost respect and sympathy to those who didn't because i will never know what you went through. Those younger times for me seem like they're better, but hopefully I can say that ten years from now by just living and doing right now.




-peace and love