Fuck it

Family weddings are always interesting to say the least, especially with my family. Not to say that this wedding was horrible but far from it. It took me a few trys to realize that there was no general public around the reception, and if there was then the general consensus was to say fuck it, and have a good time, regardless of how stupid or embarassing you may look. Lord knows my sister did whose dance moves consisted of the hip check and something between the funcky chicken and the sprinkler. It was also nice to see my parents finally relax a bit and have a good time. Another guy who had a good time was my dad. Really don't know how that guys liver still works and how he danced that much. There was something a bit interesting was that he actually began to offer me beers, as lame as that sounds. Coming from my parents who were crazy strict finally pulled a fuck it of their own and loosened up a bit. As bad as it is to say, if there was a wedding on my dads side of the family, i dont think it would have been as big or as fun. I mean i love them, i mean their family, but i just feel that my moms side just knows how to have a good time and dont give a fuck about much else. It definitely made me realize that i care way to much what people think and you just have to be yourself and deal with what comes along with that whether it be good or bad. Thinking back about it now over the past year, my personal favorite moments have happened because someone said "fuck it." Whether it be with ball, school work or just hanging out with friends, it turned out well. I overthink shit way too much which usually causes me to not take chances. I know the famous "an unexamined life is not worth living" quote, but what is an overexamined life? To me thats just stressful. I gotta get to the point where i can just push away my conscience and just react instead of thinking. At the same time cant just go without discretion to everything that comes to you. I'll just have to figure it out one way or another.

peace & love